The Pro-Age Woman April Issue - Flipbook - Page 15
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Ò Am I too old or am I too young? Am I more-wise or
am I wise-less? Am I still reaching or am I complete?Ó
I
canÕt find my place. That is
how IÕm feeling these days.
Am I too old or am I too
young? Am I more-wise or
am I wise-less? Am I still
reaching or am I complete? Am I still
searching or have I arrived? Is there
much time left or is there not enough
left? Have I gained worth or have I
lost value? Am I running from something or running to something? Am I
too tired or just in need of a respite.
Am I questioning too much or not
questioning enough? Am I on the
right track or on the wrong side of the
track? Am I thinking too deeply or
not deeply enough? Whew!!
I know itÕs Ôcool and inÕ to Òage
with positivityÓ. I am the first to say
that; but I wonder, is it my age thatÕs
tugging at me? ThatÕs making me
unsure? ThatÕs creating ambiguity?
ThatÕs creating indecisiveness?
These are new thoughts arising..
new feelings sweeping over me;
thoughts and feelings that didnÕt present themselves throughout my last
two decades. My mind is flooded with
uncertainties. One step forward. One
step back..and again and again. At
the moment, I want to stand still..
not tilt forward or backward..but yet
not be immobilized. Am I free to reflect while not dwelling on the reflections?
This is a new landscape IÕm
forging. I guess its beauty is mine to
unfold or mine to leave barren. Only
time will tell which route I take, but
IÕm hoping that itÕs the right one for
me. Hoping that the years past show
me the way toward my truth and my
legacy. Maybe..just maybe..thatÕs the
best I can hope for.
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