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What keeps us from fully embodied in love is all of the clutter, distractions on the surface. Purification
is releasing all of the stuff on the surface from seeing who we are and each other. Toxins have clouded
our perceptions. Cleansing through rigorous examination, purging, growing and nurturing is an inner
cycle that belongs in our entire life cycle, the constant loop between our awareness, where we put our
attention and our intention towards external behaviors, manifestation.
Demands to love self does not translate into loathing; it’s about our awareness and making conscious
choices, not ridding ourselves of this or that.
We are here beyond a frame of operationalization.
Breaking free of that and leaving ourselves open to the
marigolds and the jaguars in our midst. The trees will
protect us, the waters will cleanse us.
The wailing flowers cry for and with us.
We’re here to help wail the grief. We are holy and sacred
right here and now.
Nexus of agency, choice and self-determination
Holding ourselves with love and agency while we interrogate the darkest corners of ourselves, holding
ourselves accountable to our own purpose and values; going through the dark nights of purification;
digesting our pains, traumas and victories, and emerging more whole. That is our sacred work, each and
every day. And we have each other, side by side, on this sacred journey together.
Where we are going may not be fully understood or able to be perceived by our collective rational,
colonized minds. We need to learn to surrender to what emerges. Allow ourselves to be guided by our
ancestral wisdom, gut knowing, as well as our intellect.
We are in womb time, we can’t see. These necropolitical systems - politics organized around or that
result in death, destruction, harm6 don’t offer a way forward. We are in the darkness and we have to
feel our way through. Trusting emergence won’t come out of the colonial desire to see and control the
future. It is so difficult to vision from an expansive place, because we tend to get stuck in what we know,
which for most of us is white supremacy, colonization, and oppressive systems.
6 Bayo Akomolafe
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