LAND OF THE LIVING MAGAZINE - Magazine - Page 22
SONG STORY
Good songs pour in the shower.
Maybe it was the sound of water pouring in the
shower? Maybe it was the tears that poured before it.
But this song poured out regardless.
Caleb & I had just left his parents house in Virginia
Beach, Virginia after a failed adoption.
We were staying at my parents’ lake house in Charlotte,
North Carolina after 3 weeks of waiting in Virginia for
the Birth Mother of our newborn twins to change her
mind and we planned to wait 3 more weeks in hopes of
the tide turning.
The tension was at an all time high.
I was completely out of control of the situation.
My hope had been running a marathon and was
running out of breath.
You know when you're holding onto something clench
fisted and when you finally feel like you've gotten a
good grip, it all turns to liquid running through your
hands?
I had lost control and I needed to surrender the illusion
of it…that was all that there was left to do.
I wrote all but Verse 2 standing there in the shower…
pouring out my praise and laying down my worries.
I could feel Him right there with me.
I just cried on His shoulder singing line by line
as He persuaded me to believe that this story
wasn’t through. That I was chosen and He had come
to convince me of it.
Weeks later everything changed and we got a call
from the Birth Mother to come pick up the babies!
I ended this song with a surprise secret track from an
old hymn I used to sing as a child by Kelly Willard,
called “Cares Chorus.” I realized in the studio as we
were recording, that “Pour My Praise” was just my
adult expression of what I have been singing since I
was a little girl in my private Christian school chapels.
It felt so natural to end it with the simplicity of that
old hymn bringing me back to His feet.
When thinking of graphics to illustrate this song, my
first thought was the typical water pouring, but the
melting wax felt so much more appropriate. When we
light the fire of His presence, our worries can't help but
start melting away.
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