PAW MarchIssue - Flipbook - Page 58
shame, anger and possibility of the fear of reproach or
denunciation were the truth about the baby revealed.
It further explained my inability to sustain relationships as I’d unconsciously find ways to sabotage
them; after all, I’m not good enough anyway nor am
I deserving. That was the most consistent message and
the one that would ultimately define my path. I ultimately spent far too many years accepting negative
messaging as though it was personal, loaded and aimed directly at me.
If I don’t value myself, if I don’t see myself as
worthy no one else will. This is a message that has
taken me the better part of my adult life to understand
and challenge.
At the risk of being overly simplistic there exists
now an appreciation that there’s absolutely no-thing I
can do about the past. Sure, it informed my choices yet
I still have the choice to re-define my trajectory on my
terms. I have the choice to acknowledge that I matter.
I have the choice to choose those who also choose me.
I have the choice to believe that I can succeed at anything I put my mind to. I have the choice to refuse to
accept the messaging that makes me question my own
viability. Confidence in oneself and one’s ability is often the sole determining factor for success in this life,
whatever terms are used to define it. There have been
far too many years that I stymied my own growth
because of that lack of confidence.
TA P TO C O N N E C T
“Believe in yourself right from the start, believe
in the magic that’s inside your heart, believe in
yourself not because I told you to; believe in
yourself because I believe in you.”
FROM THE “WIZ”
76 THE PRO-AGE WOMAN March Issue
