CCChat-Magazine 29 2 - Flipbook - Page 13
If you are thinking about
suicide,read this first.
"Being unsure about dying is okay and normal.
The fact that you are still alive at this minute
means you are still a little bit unsure."
If you are feeling suicidal now, please stop long
enough to read this. It will only take about five
minutes. I do not want to talk you out of your
bad feelings. I am not a therapist or other
mental health professional - only someone who
knows what it is like to be in pain. I don't know
who you are, or why you are reading this page.
I only know that for the moment, you're reading
it, and that is good.
I can assume that you are here because you
are troubled and considering ending your life. If
it were possible, I would prefer to be there with
you at this moment, to sit with you and talk,
face to face and heart to heart. But since that is
not possible, we will have to make do with
this. I have known a lot of people who have
wanted to kill themselves, so I have some small
idea of what you might be feeling. I know that
you might not be up to reading a long book, so
I am going to keep this short. While we are
together here for the next five minutes, I have
five simple, practical things I would like to share
with you. I won't argue with you about whether
you should kill yourself.
But I assume that if you are thinking about it,
you feel pretty bad. Well, you're still reading,
and that's very good. I'd like to ask you to stay
with me for the rest of this page. I hope it
means that you're at least a tiny bit unsure,
somewhere deep inside, about whether or not
you really will end your life.
Often people feel that, even in the deepest
darkness of despair. Being unsure about dying
is okay and normal. The fact that you are still
alive at this minute means you are still a little
bit unsure. It means that even while you want
to die, at the same time some part of you still
wants to live. So let's hang on to that, and keep
going for a few more minutes.
Start by considering this statement: Suicide is
not chosen; it happens when pain exceeds
resources for coping with pain. That's all it's
about. You are not a bad person, or crazy, or
weak, or flawed, because you feel suicidal. It
doesn't even mean that you really want to die it only means that you have more pain than you
can cope with right now.
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